Take Time To REALIZE

You know, I really wish some people would just take some time, think about their actions and choice of words and realize how they come off to others and make other people feel. I have been getting a lot of this lately. Too often, I am hearing "I didn't mean it like that" or "this is what I meant to do/say". Well, you know what I think about it? I think that I only socialize with adults and adults should be old enough and mature enough to understand that people aren't always going to like that you have to say or how you feel and that the best thing you can do is stand your groud and be HONEST. I would say that most of the time, when I hear these phrases, people really DO mean what they said or did, they just... are too worried or upset about my opinion to tell how they really feel and be truthful. Well, if I am can be as honest of a person as I and not bullshit around the bush with people, I kind of expect the same in return. I am just TIRED. Flat out.

Physically, Emotionally, and any other way you can think of. I am tired of feeling like I have to "tolerate" my friends and, inside, getting upset because of their actions or words and having to hear excuses. I am also tired of people who are PARENTS (and should therefore be GROWN) getting mad at how I treat them, whenever they won't take the time to THINK about how I get treated and maybe how I treat them in just in return and a result of THEIR own actions. Ya know?

I am an ACTUAL adult, not a young adult anymore and I am ready to live my life as such. I don't have time for people who don't ACTUALLY care about me or people who are just in my life because they "feel sorry for me" or "don't want to upset me". That is how I feel and how LITTLE I think I actually mean to some people. Honestly. And, it's stupid. I would much rather have REAL friends, and trust me, if your not an honest person and can't tell me how you truly feel or feel like you have to "cover up" and make excuse and be, well... FAKE with me, then I am better off without you, honestly.

Now, don't get this twisted. I love my friends and most of my friends I am very grateful to have and I love them dearly, but I don't think I get the same in return from all of them.

Well, I have to go. But, bottom line, with school starting soon and me still working full time, it's time for me to CUT the bullshit. Don't be surprised if that means YOU. You can just ask yourself "how do I make her feel?" and take time to REALIZE on your own or I suppose just ask me. I will tell you. You all know that I will. Love you all. Time to work now. Tehe.

<3 Mrs. Heidi Hardin