Everything Changes

So, there have been a lot of changes in my life lately. I just thought that since it has been nearly four months since my last blog, I would take time to share them with you all. Haha.

First off, the last time that I blogged I was about to enter or had just started my Fall 2010 semester in college at school. Well, the semester is now over, the final grades are in, and I am proud to report that I have gotten all As this semester. That means 4 As on my transcript and I could NOT be happier about that. It was hard, I am not going to lie and pretend that it was easy, but it was TOTALLY WORTH IT. I now know that no matter what, I can do it. I did all of this while working a full time schedule at my job as well. Not that I had much time for anyting else, but I DID IT. Thats all that matters. Way to go, right? Um... well... sort of.

Even tought I am totally and completely proud of myself, I keep having to ask myself at what expense did I achieve this goal of straight As. I feel like I have given up SO MUCH! Basically, in the past four months, my apartment has been destroyed by my animals in one way, shape, or form. I think it is because I am hardly home long enough to spend that time and attention that I need to tend to it. Ya know? It literally is one thing after another, and I feel like I lost my closest friend. She doesn't even care about me anymore and now I know this. I tried, she tried, and yet... I look at my phone everyday and she hasn't made the effort to keep it going and maintain communication. Now, I am a firm believer that it goes both ways, but believe me, I have tried and I feel like it is her turn. And, that makes me sad. Literally, my heart is sad. I thought this was my best friend, my "bestie" forever, but I guess people change, as sad as that is and as much as I don't want to accept it.

You know, I don't want to start drama and I am not saying anything bad about anyone, I am just using it as an example of yet another way my life has changed recently. It's sad. I miss her... I wish things could go back to how they were. Truly. But, is it possible? I don't know.

What I do know is that I love my job, I love how wonderful I am doing in school, and I love my life at home and my family. I even get to see my stepson, Evan, more often now because the little bugger finally turned 3 years old. Haha. In fact, for Christmas, we are getting him almost a full week. I'm so excited. Yeys!

Bottom line, in spite of all of the changes going on in my life recently, I am still UBER happy and love my life. Not to mention that we did finally get rid of Abby, the Mastiff, and I feel like I have more control over my animals and my apartment now (even if it is one thing after the next, it would be MUCH worse with her still with us. Trust me). It's a good feeling. Life is SWEET! Love you all.

Mrs. Heidi Hardin

P.S. MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!! :)

Take Time To REALIZE

You know, I really wish some people would just take some time, think about their actions and choice of words and realize how they come off to others and make other people feel. I have been getting a lot of this lately. Too often, I am hearing "I didn't mean it like that" or "this is what I meant to do/say". Well, you know what I think about it? I think that I only socialize with adults and adults should be old enough and mature enough to understand that people aren't always going to like that you have to say or how you feel and that the best thing you can do is stand your groud and be HONEST. I would say that most of the time, when I hear these phrases, people really DO mean what they said or did, they just... are too worried or upset about my opinion to tell how they really feel and be truthful. Well, if I am can be as honest of a person as I and not bullshit around the bush with people, I kind of expect the same in return. I am just TIRED. Flat out.

Physically, Emotionally, and any other way you can think of. I am tired of feeling like I have to "tolerate" my friends and, inside, getting upset because of their actions or words and having to hear excuses. I am also tired of people who are PARENTS (and should therefore be GROWN) getting mad at how I treat them, whenever they won't take the time to THINK about how I get treated and maybe how I treat them in just in return and a result of THEIR own actions. Ya know?

I am an ACTUAL adult, not a young adult anymore and I am ready to live my life as such. I don't have time for people who don't ACTUALLY care about me or people who are just in my life because they "feel sorry for me" or "don't want to upset me". That is how I feel and how LITTLE I think I actually mean to some people. Honestly. And, it's stupid. I would much rather have REAL friends, and trust me, if your not an honest person and can't tell me how you truly feel or feel like you have to "cover up" and make excuse and be, well... FAKE with me, then I am better off without you, honestly.

Now, don't get this twisted. I love my friends and most of my friends I am very grateful to have and I love them dearly, but I don't think I get the same in return from all of them.

Well, I have to go. But, bottom line, with school starting soon and me still working full time, it's time for me to CUT the bullshit. Don't be surprised if that means YOU. You can just ask yourself "how do I make her feel?" and take time to REALIZE on your own or I suppose just ask me. I will tell you. You all know that I will. Love you all. Time to work now. Tehe.

<3 Mrs. Heidi Hardin

It's Been A While

Ok, sorry you all. I am a completely terrible blogger lately. Lol. As in, I haven't been blogging. Haha. A lot has been going on in my life. I just wanted to give you all a quick update, so... here is goes and I will write a longer and more detailed one soon. Promises. I will find the time in the next week or so. Haha.

Anyways, we have MOVED. Yes! Finally. And for once, I am compeltely and utterly happy and content here. I mean, I have loved all of my other homes in the past but this just tops them ALL and blows them all out of the water. I mean, truly. I am an East Sider now, though. Haha. I am still adapting to the traffic. Gah! It's CrAzY!

But, I have finished reading Harry Potter. ALL OF THEM! I am completely DONE. I even read The Tales Of Beetle The Bard. Lol. There is literally NOTHING more Harry Potter than I can read (well, besides Fan Fiction, which I have NEVER been into). Haha.

I am currently reading the Last Song and am pretty far into it already. I have just been such a reader lately. I ADORE It. I Love that my life allows me time to read. Tehe.

Speaking of which, I am going to head to bed after curling up with my kitten faces and my good book. Lol. So, I will write more later. But, LOVE you all. *Smiles*.

<3 Mrs. Hardin

P.S. Bestie becomes Mrs. Delano in LESS THAN 90 DAYS!!!!!!! OMG! I am so happy for her. You should all comment her FB page and give her Love. Tehe. LOVE YOU KASSIE!!!!!! *Mwah*.

School And Learning

I just realized that I left out an important part of my life and one of the other MAJOR reasons that I am SO HAPPY lately. *Smiles*. Well, that is because I am starting school on July 7th as well as all of the other amazing turns that my life has taken lately. Haha.

For those of you who don't know, I am in school for paralegal studies but I hope to become an attorney. I want to get a degree to be a paralegal first so that I can get a good paying job while in Law School at a law firm. Therefore, I am doing an associates and THEN my bachelors and THEN Law School. I am starting back up on July 7th and not stopping until I am DONE! Lol. I'm UBER happy about this.

Finally with everything going in the direction that it NEEDS to be and that we WANT it to go, I am sleeping better at night, feeling better and healthier, and just over all a LOT more satisfied with life lately.

So... wish me luck in school! Haha. I'm doing one class over the summer and then it is at least 4 classes a semester until I am toally DONE and in Law School. I will keep you all posted. Again, this girl is ALL smiles. Ha!

Also, hubby and I revisited the discussion about adoption and in light of all of the changes lately and us having very YOUNG and CRAZY pets, we are waiting until we move to Indy for Law School before we adopt a kid, so... we are talking like 3 years or so. I can wait. Besides, it gives us time to get things calmed down with his Ex and get our pets in line. Lol. Ya know? But, it's nice to know that we have a LIFE PLAN and moving, quickly even, at getting it all accomplished. I ADORE my life and MY HUBBY!!!!!! Tehe.

Now, if I could just get some undertime when I need it from work and Hubby could get custody of his son, life would be FANTASTIC and PERFECT! Haha. I'm joking... but a girl can deam right?

Love you all,
Mrs. Heidi Hardin

Everything is a Better Change

Wow! That’s really the best word to describe how incredible my life has been lately and how amazingly happy I have been. *Smiles*. Have you ever heard the song “For Fiona” by No Use for a Name? Well, there is a line in the song that says “Nothing is the same. Everything is a BETTER change”. That’s exactly how I feel. Not only should you listen to the song because it is amazing and the band is just fantabulous. Haha. But, honestly, it is how I feel. Here are all the updates from the past week or so.

First off, on Monday of last week Stacy got a call from his now employer (Haha… he is actually at work there now) saying that he starts today (5/10) and to be there for a physical on Friday. Well, this is the job he REALLY wanted and has wanted to get for about a year now. So, you can only imagine how incredibly excited we were. Tehe. Anyways, the very next day we also not only got a call saying that we were approved for the apartment complex that we wanted to live at but that they had EXACTLY what we wanted (downstairs with a Fireplace) available on July 1st. Obviously, we TOOK it.

Now, this does mean breaking our lease but we talked to our apartment complex here and made arrangements and straightened everything out with them, so it is all going to work out okay. I’m just SO EXCITED.

Bottom line, we are moving on July 1st to the apartment of my DREAMS, Haha, and Hubby now has an incredible job where he will be making more than I am in just 90 days. I’m really happy for him and happy for the direction that our life is going.
Also, we will be having a fenced in backyard and are ALLOWED to have a Mastiff, so… Abby is now here to stay. I’m happy about it, even though I get UBER upset with her at times. But, at least now we will have the money to train her and she will have a place to run and play. It really will be TONS better. I can hardly wait. Not to mention, my Bestie will literally live right across the highway from me. I have missed her. Yeys! I hope we can finally make some time to hang out. I love her.

Lastly, in light of the extra monies we will be having we will also be updating some things around our apartment (like dining room table, new bed for Evan, and MUCH more) as well as making a plan to be out of debt COMPLETELY within one Year from him starting his job. I cannot WAIT for that day. Should be even sooner provided he will be getting bonuses and such, but… we are setting our goals to make sure we WILL reach them. So, overall, we are being UBER responsible and finally got the break in life that we needed. Praise Jesus!!!!!!

I finally feel like I am moving from “young adulthood” to being an ACTUAL adult and I love it. Finally!

Well, I love you all but it’s time to eat some food and spend some time with my lovely furbabies. Haha.

Much Love,
Mrs. Heidi Hardin

Things To Read

Just a simple list of my readings. Going to update and add to the list as I go. *Smiles*.

Currently Reading:
The Lovely Bones

Reading List:
True Believer
These Boots Were Made For Stalking (A Clique Novel)
My Little Phony (A Clique Novel)
A Walk To Remember
The Notebook
Pretty Little Liars Series
The Clique Summer Collection: Massie
The Clique Summer Collection: Claire
The Clique Summer Collection: Alicia
The Clique Summer Collection: Kristen
The DaVinci Code

When Life Hands You Lemons

So, you know what? I'm HAPPY!!!! And, there is nothing that anyone or anything can do about it. Noone is going to get to me today. This is my new mindset and this is how I feel.

You see, we were SUPPOSED to be moving this Thursday (4 days) and now, well, were not. So, you know what? Thats OKAY! We are going to make the best of it. Here is what happened.

First off, as you all know, Hubby lost his job back in January becuase this stupid MORON who called herself his "manager" basically needed someone to blame for like an 800 audit that she received. Since she hated my hubby already due to personal reasons which we will NOT get into here, she fired him. He has been on unemployment ever since.

Well, he was recenetly given a job at a place that I actually used to work and we knew that he was only days away from getting a job when we made the decision to move becuase it had been so long and he had so many jobs leads at this point. Well, they decided to call us A WEEK BEFORE WE ARE SUPPOSED TO MOVE and tell us that they had reconsidered bc of our income and Stacy having lost his job. This would have been okay, mind you, if they had said something BEFORE having us sign a pre-lease, call vectren and cabel, and even pay our deposit. Heck, he had even transfered our renter's insurance. So, anyways, to make a long story short we are NOT moving and we are NOT RENTING FROM GOEBEL REALITY EVER AGAIN! Period. Those people are stupid. And, although I understand their reasons, NOTHING excuses going back on your word and causing me the hassell of cancelling things already in place for the move. PERIOD!

Needless to say... I was seriously upset and FURIOUS!

However, when life hands you lemons... MAKE LEMONADE!!!!! Haha.

Now, because of this we will be moving into the placed that I have DREAMED of living ever since I saw it and Hubby is only waiting on a background check for an AMAZING job opportunity and we are ALL SET. Haha. We are going to get on their reserves list soon (prolly next week) and get the ball rolling.

We are not, however, going to break this lease because of the money involved. Instead, we came up with a more producting way to spend the money. TURNING THE APARTMENT WE ARE IN NOW INTO THE APARTMENT WE WANT! We are talking new curtains, a loveseat, a new bed in the second bedroom (Evan's room) and even new dishes! I could not be more excited and I have already made up the list and did the budget. So, by the time we move, we truly will have it ALL. *Smiles*. I cannot wait. The only thing that sucks is that Hubby is having to work this job that he really doesn't want in the meantime until he starts the job he REALLY wants. But, it's all okay. I can't wait and I will be the happiest person alive in a few months when I am in my new HOME, let me tell ya.

Anyways, just wanted to update you all. Love you guys and keep on SMILING!!!!!!

Peace,
Heidi Hardin

Hey There, LadyBug

Ok, so the strangest thing happened at work last week. Lol. I went into work one day and I wasn't having the greatest day at all and was not in a very good mood. Well, I happened to see a Ladybug and it brightened my day. Haha. So... I decided to take it to my desk at work (after showing my boss) and watch it.

Obviously, after an hour or so, it was gone and I never saw it again for the rest of the day. I was kind of sad, but it still made me happy to see such a random thing inside of my work building.

I swear the smallest things amuse me. Haha.

Anyways, I went back to work the following day and on my way to work I made a random comment to my Hubby that I had hoped to see the Ladybug again that day and that it would make me laugh and be happy. :)

Well, I am sure you can see where I am going with this... but I went to work, put my things on my desk, used the restroom, and then went back to my desk and THERE IT WAS! The same one, I am sure. I know this because it was on my drink. What are the odds? Haha.

I just thought I would share my little bit of happiness with you. Maybe it can make you smile too?

Life is just SO RANDOM and Beautiful, isn't it?

With Love,
Heidi Hardin

Ice Cream

Oh, yea and just an FYI. The new Ice Cream place in the Evansville Mall (Scoops and Smoothie) is INCREDIBLE! Haha. I loved their cookie dough ice cream and Hubby loved the Butterfinger flavor. You all should TOTALLY try it.

Just be careful though, because when I got home, there were THREE transactions on my bank account from their debit machine. Lol. It got fixed and all, but the people weren't very professional about it when I called.

The Ice Cream, however, is AMAZING. I just wanted to share.

Again, LOVES!

Pure Marital BLISS

So, my life is incredible. Haha. But, you all knew that, right? Lol. I'm joking. But, honestly, I am so very UBER happy right now, I could BURST! Tehe. Here are all of the updates.

First off, after hubby and I decided that we were going to move to the East Side, we decided to go and talk to our rental office about breaking our lease, just as general information. We wanted to know if we would be fined or anything and how much, so that we could decide when we would be moving to the East Side. *Smiles*. Anyways, while we were there, our leasing agent (assistant property manager) tells us that a townhome that we looked into a few months back was still vacant and finally done being remodeled. So, as we are nice people, Haha, we decided to have a look. Let me tell you, there were SPARKLES in Hubby's eyes at all of the renovations and how amazingly beautiful this home was. We both, I think I can safely say, fell in LOVE at first sight.

So, where am I going with this? Well, MOVING DAY will be April 29th. Haha. NO JOKE! She pulled some strings to get us out of our lease and to work with us on getting our transfer fee down and we just couldn't resist. It fell into our lap right at the exact time that we happened to have the money to do it as well. *Smiles* (I can't stop), I am just so happy.

I will have a downstairs dining room and living room, kitchen, and TWO bathrooms that will have finished wood flooring that is BEAUTIFUL. There is a washer and dryer hookup (in which we are buying them ASAP) and a dishwasher. Now, I have NEVER had a dishwasher before. Can you just imagine how STOKED we are? Honestly.

Well, like I said, we are moving towards the end of the month. Vectren, Insight (Cable), and our renter's insurance are all set to be transferred and the pre-lease has been SIGNED! It's MINE! My new.... HOME!!!!! Yeys! Haha.

As you can tell, I am still very excited and happy about all of this. And, to make it all just THAT much better, Hubby probably has a job lined up because his uncle is getting him hired on and we have a prospective home for Abby in which she will have ACRES of land to run and play, which is EXACTLY what she needs. I hope that everything falls into place as I am praying that it will be AMAZING! Tehe.

I am not, however, saying that you shouldn't let me know if you are interested. She needs a home and we will gladly give her to whoever comes to us first. We just want what is best for her and love her. Plus, she is over the weight limit that we are allowed and when we got her, we didn't think she would be because we didn't know her true breed. Ya know? So, still let us know and keep an eye out if you would. Ok?

Well, I love you all but it's time for me to shower, eat, and then finish the rest of my shift at work tonight. I have been up early getting this all done and sleeping this afternoon. Comments?

Loves,
Mrs. Hardin

Randoms While Working

So... I am on my "lunch" hour at work and just thought I would share with you a little update on my life. First off, as some of you know, Hubby and I are moving to the East Side at the end of our lease for MANY reasons. Haha. This is still a long ways away but it's HILARIOUS because Hubby is now more excited than I am. Haha.

We went to the East Side for lunch and to get some things done before I had to come into work today and he just COULD NOT stop talking about it. It's cute. He calls me "domesticated", but I have news for him. Marriage life has taken a toll on him as well. Lol.

Anyways, I cannot wait to move now and I know FOR SURE that we will be there for a least 3 years, so I can't wait to finally settle in, close to my work at that. Haha. *Smiles*.

In other news... (I love saying that)... still no word on any DEF. people who want Abby. I am going to miss her but I know this is the best thing for her. So, please keep your eyes out for me. Haha.

Also, I don't know if I have shared this or not but I am now actually READING the Harry Potter series. Not something I EVER thought that I would do and yet, I am almost to book number 4. Crazy! I love it. I love READING.

Goodness, to be honest, I feel like I am finally being ME again. Tehe. It's incredible. My life is pretty amazing and I cannot WAIT to see what else the future has in store for my husband and myself.

Life is amazing. Just thought I would share. Love you all.

Toodles,
Heidi Hardin

Abigail (Abby), The Mastiff

Ok. So, Stacy and I have made some life decisions latetly and one of them is that we are getting rid of our Mastiff. I will explain why and more details if you are interested but I don't plan on taking any money for her or anything like that, but if you are interested just e-mail me at: HMHardin@gmail.com or comment, twitter, or SOMETHING. Haha. She is a wonderful Dog and we won't just let anyone have her. So, if you know someone who would want an english mastiff mix, just let me know. Love you all. Here are some pics! Haha.



Abby. Shes GEORGOUS!

Abby next to Aniya (Shes MINE, sorry. Haha). LOVE them both VERY much.

Again, let me know. Peace.

Heidi Hardin

Just To Explain A Little

So, I felt the need to write on here and explain why this and my twitter account are the only online accounts that I am going to be having active anymore. Well, it's simple really. So, here it goes.

First off, I am married. This just means that I am at a point in my life where I just don't get the appeal of it anymore. Especially myspace. There is just so much drama and I can name one person in particular who just reads my stuff EVERYTIME that I change something and then starts crap with me. Now, im not going into deatils (Thats not what this blog is about, in fact, it's about getting RID of the needs to explain things like this) but it has been about a year and a half that I have been fighting with this girl and she STILL will not keep my name out of her mouth. So, im just done. I don't need it. Like I said, I am married and my life is SO MUCH more than social networking sites. Honestly.

As far as facebook, well... I may be back on it after a while, who knows, but right now I want to try just having a blog, twitter, and e-mail. So, this is what I am going to do.

Anyways, I just wanted to explain a little. I will write more in here later. I promise not to neglect the blog. I LOVE blogging. So, gnite folks. Love ya. :)

Heidi Hardin

New Life, A New Blog

So, as you all know if you are reading this, Stacy and I have started a new blog as our way of communicating with the world via internet. This is as an alternative to social networking sites, which we hate. Haha. Anyways, just comment and we will send you our e-mail or any other information. Thanks. We love you all. *Smiles*.

Mrs. Heidi Hardin