Take Time To REALIZE

You know, I really wish some people would just take some time, think about their actions and choice of words and realize how they come off to others and make other people feel. I have been getting a lot of this lately. Too often, I am hearing "I didn't mean it like that" or "this is what I meant to do/say". Well, you know what I think about it? I think that I only socialize with adults and adults should be old enough and mature enough to understand that people aren't always going to like that you have to say or how you feel and that the best thing you can do is stand your groud and be HONEST. I would say that most of the time, when I hear these phrases, people really DO mean what they said or did, they just... are too worried or upset about my opinion to tell how they really feel and be truthful. Well, if I am can be as honest of a person as I and not bullshit around the bush with people, I kind of expect the same in return. I am just TIRED. Flat out.

Physically, Emotionally, and any other way you can think of. I am tired of feeling like I have to "tolerate" my friends and, inside, getting upset because of their actions or words and having to hear excuses. I am also tired of people who are PARENTS (and should therefore be GROWN) getting mad at how I treat them, whenever they won't take the time to THINK about how I get treated and maybe how I treat them in just in return and a result of THEIR own actions. Ya know?

I am an ACTUAL adult, not a young adult anymore and I am ready to live my life as such. I don't have time for people who don't ACTUALLY care about me or people who are just in my life because they "feel sorry for me" or "don't want to upset me". That is how I feel and how LITTLE I think I actually mean to some people. Honestly. And, it's stupid. I would much rather have REAL friends, and trust me, if your not an honest person and can't tell me how you truly feel or feel like you have to "cover up" and make excuse and be, well... FAKE with me, then I am better off without you, honestly.

Now, don't get this twisted. I love my friends and most of my friends I am very grateful to have and I love them dearly, but I don't think I get the same in return from all of them.

Well, I have to go. But, bottom line, with school starting soon and me still working full time, it's time for me to CUT the bullshit. Don't be surprised if that means YOU. You can just ask yourself "how do I make her feel?" and take time to REALIZE on your own or I suppose just ask me. I will tell you. You all know that I will. Love you all. Time to work now. Tehe.

<3 Mrs. Heidi Hardin

It's Been A While

Ok, sorry you all. I am a completely terrible blogger lately. Lol. As in, I haven't been blogging. Haha. A lot has been going on in my life. I just wanted to give you all a quick update, so... here is goes and I will write a longer and more detailed one soon. Promises. I will find the time in the next week or so. Haha.

Anyways, we have MOVED. Yes! Finally. And for once, I am compeltely and utterly happy and content here. I mean, I have loved all of my other homes in the past but this just tops them ALL and blows them all out of the water. I mean, truly. I am an East Sider now, though. Haha. I am still adapting to the traffic. Gah! It's CrAzY!

But, I have finished reading Harry Potter. ALL OF THEM! I am completely DONE. I even read The Tales Of Beetle The Bard. Lol. There is literally NOTHING more Harry Potter than I can read (well, besides Fan Fiction, which I have NEVER been into). Haha.

I am currently reading the Last Song and am pretty far into it already. I have just been such a reader lately. I ADORE It. I Love that my life allows me time to read. Tehe.

Speaking of which, I am going to head to bed after curling up with my kitten faces and my good book. Lol. So, I will write more later. But, LOVE you all. *Smiles*.

<3 Mrs. Hardin

P.S. Bestie becomes Mrs. Delano in LESS THAN 90 DAYS!!!!!!! OMG! I am so happy for her. You should all comment her FB page and give her Love. Tehe. LOVE YOU KASSIE!!!!!! *Mwah*.

School And Learning

I just realized that I left out an important part of my life and one of the other MAJOR reasons that I am SO HAPPY lately. *Smiles*. Well, that is because I am starting school on July 7th as well as all of the other amazing turns that my life has taken lately. Haha.

For those of you who don't know, I am in school for paralegal studies but I hope to become an attorney. I want to get a degree to be a paralegal first so that I can get a good paying job while in Law School at a law firm. Therefore, I am doing an associates and THEN my bachelors and THEN Law School. I am starting back up on July 7th and not stopping until I am DONE! Lol. I'm UBER happy about this.

Finally with everything going in the direction that it NEEDS to be and that we WANT it to go, I am sleeping better at night, feeling better and healthier, and just over all a LOT more satisfied with life lately.

So... wish me luck in school! Haha. I'm doing one class over the summer and then it is at least 4 classes a semester until I am toally DONE and in Law School. I will keep you all posted. Again, this girl is ALL smiles. Ha!

Also, hubby and I revisited the discussion about adoption and in light of all of the changes lately and us having very YOUNG and CRAZY pets, we are waiting until we move to Indy for Law School before we adopt a kid, so... we are talking like 3 years or so. I can wait. Besides, it gives us time to get things calmed down with his Ex and get our pets in line. Lol. Ya know? But, it's nice to know that we have a LIFE PLAN and moving, quickly even, at getting it all accomplished. I ADORE my life and MY HUBBY!!!!!! Tehe.

Now, if I could just get some undertime when I need it from work and Hubby could get custody of his son, life would be FANTASTIC and PERFECT! Haha. I'm joking... but a girl can deam right?

Love you all,
Mrs. Heidi Hardin

Everything is a Better Change

Wow! That’s really the best word to describe how incredible my life has been lately and how amazingly happy I have been. *Smiles*. Have you ever heard the song “For Fiona” by No Use for a Name? Well, there is a line in the song that says “Nothing is the same. Everything is a BETTER change”. That’s exactly how I feel. Not only should you listen to the song because it is amazing and the band is just fantabulous. Haha. But, honestly, it is how I feel. Here are all the updates from the past week or so.

First off, on Monday of last week Stacy got a call from his now employer (Haha… he is actually at work there now) saying that he starts today (5/10) and to be there for a physical on Friday. Well, this is the job he REALLY wanted and has wanted to get for about a year now. So, you can only imagine how incredibly excited we were. Tehe. Anyways, the very next day we also not only got a call saying that we were approved for the apartment complex that we wanted to live at but that they had EXACTLY what we wanted (downstairs with a Fireplace) available on July 1st. Obviously, we TOOK it.

Now, this does mean breaking our lease but we talked to our apartment complex here and made arrangements and straightened everything out with them, so it is all going to work out okay. I’m just SO EXCITED.

Bottom line, we are moving on July 1st to the apartment of my DREAMS, Haha, and Hubby now has an incredible job where he will be making more than I am in just 90 days. I’m really happy for him and happy for the direction that our life is going.
Also, we will be having a fenced in backyard and are ALLOWED to have a Mastiff, so… Abby is now here to stay. I’m happy about it, even though I get UBER upset with her at times. But, at least now we will have the money to train her and she will have a place to run and play. It really will be TONS better. I can hardly wait. Not to mention, my Bestie will literally live right across the highway from me. I have missed her. Yeys! I hope we can finally make some time to hang out. I love her.

Lastly, in light of the extra monies we will be having we will also be updating some things around our apartment (like dining room table, new bed for Evan, and MUCH more) as well as making a plan to be out of debt COMPLETELY within one Year from him starting his job. I cannot WAIT for that day. Should be even sooner provided he will be getting bonuses and such, but… we are setting our goals to make sure we WILL reach them. So, overall, we are being UBER responsible and finally got the break in life that we needed. Praise Jesus!!!!!!

I finally feel like I am moving from “young adulthood” to being an ACTUAL adult and I love it. Finally!

Well, I love you all but it’s time to eat some food and spend some time with my lovely furbabies. Haha.

Much Love,
Mrs. Heidi Hardin

Things To Read

Just a simple list of my readings. Going to update and add to the list as I go. *Smiles*.

Currently Reading:
The Lovely Bones

Reading List:
True Believer
These Boots Were Made For Stalking (A Clique Novel)
My Little Phony (A Clique Novel)
A Walk To Remember
The Notebook
Pretty Little Liars Series
The Clique Summer Collection: Massie
The Clique Summer Collection: Claire
The Clique Summer Collection: Alicia
The Clique Summer Collection: Kristen
The DaVinci Code

When Life Hands You Lemons

So, you know what? I'm HAPPY!!!! And, there is nothing that anyone or anything can do about it. Noone is going to get to me today. This is my new mindset and this is how I feel.

You see, we were SUPPOSED to be moving this Thursday (4 days) and now, well, were not. So, you know what? Thats OKAY! We are going to make the best of it. Here is what happened.

First off, as you all know, Hubby lost his job back in January becuase this stupid MORON who called herself his "manager" basically needed someone to blame for like an 800 audit that she received. Since she hated my hubby already due to personal reasons which we will NOT get into here, she fired him. He has been on unemployment ever since.

Well, he was recenetly given a job at a place that I actually used to work and we knew that he was only days away from getting a job when we made the decision to move becuase it had been so long and he had so many jobs leads at this point. Well, they decided to call us A WEEK BEFORE WE ARE SUPPOSED TO MOVE and tell us that they had reconsidered bc of our income and Stacy having lost his job. This would have been okay, mind you, if they had said something BEFORE having us sign a pre-lease, call vectren and cabel, and even pay our deposit. Heck, he had even transfered our renter's insurance. So, anyways, to make a long story short we are NOT moving and we are NOT RENTING FROM GOEBEL REALITY EVER AGAIN! Period. Those people are stupid. And, although I understand their reasons, NOTHING excuses going back on your word and causing me the hassell of cancelling things already in place for the move. PERIOD!

Needless to say... I was seriously upset and FURIOUS!

However, when life hands you lemons... MAKE LEMONADE!!!!! Haha.

Now, because of this we will be moving into the placed that I have DREAMED of living ever since I saw it and Hubby is only waiting on a background check for an AMAZING job opportunity and we are ALL SET. Haha. We are going to get on their reserves list soon (prolly next week) and get the ball rolling.

We are not, however, going to break this lease because of the money involved. Instead, we came up with a more producting way to spend the money. TURNING THE APARTMENT WE ARE IN NOW INTO THE APARTMENT WE WANT! We are talking new curtains, a loveseat, a new bed in the second bedroom (Evan's room) and even new dishes! I could not be more excited and I have already made up the list and did the budget. So, by the time we move, we truly will have it ALL. *Smiles*. I cannot wait. The only thing that sucks is that Hubby is having to work this job that he really doesn't want in the meantime until he starts the job he REALLY wants. But, it's all okay. I can't wait and I will be the happiest person alive in a few months when I am in my new HOME, let me tell ya.

Anyways, just wanted to update you all. Love you guys and keep on SMILING!!!!!!

Peace,
Heidi Hardin

Hey There, LadyBug

Ok, so the strangest thing happened at work last week. Lol. I went into work one day and I wasn't having the greatest day at all and was not in a very good mood. Well, I happened to see a Ladybug and it brightened my day. Haha. So... I decided to take it to my desk at work (after showing my boss) and watch it.

Obviously, after an hour or so, it was gone and I never saw it again for the rest of the day. I was kind of sad, but it still made me happy to see such a random thing inside of my work building.

I swear the smallest things amuse me. Haha.

Anyways, I went back to work the following day and on my way to work I made a random comment to my Hubby that I had hoped to see the Ladybug again that day and that it would make me laugh and be happy. :)

Well, I am sure you can see where I am going with this... but I went to work, put my things on my desk, used the restroom, and then went back to my desk and THERE IT WAS! The same one, I am sure. I know this because it was on my drink. What are the odds? Haha.

I just thought I would share my little bit of happiness with you. Maybe it can make you smile too?

Life is just SO RANDOM and Beautiful, isn't it?

With Love,
Heidi Hardin